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2. |
God's Failures
04:27
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You--I demand your attention!
A story would be told about a boy who's growing older
Now's the time to dive inside your warped and tattered mind
The pieces do not fit the puzzle of your logic's path
And as I sit in the candlelight
A silhouette from behind
Failing Gods
Into the shadow of my mind, mindful of the implications
Failing Gods
Where was your God when brother died?
Failing Gods
A cancer patient hopes he'll win
Failing Gods
I'm by your side until the end
Punished by the hand of God for seizing fruit of knowledge
The metaphor made flesh--you'd carve me pound for pound
And as he rots in his death bed
I see his father with calloused eyes
Failing Gods
Into the shadow of my mind, mindful of the fading light
Failing Gods
They've put their stock in failing Gods
Failing Gods
A cancer patient hopes he'll win
Failing Gods
I'm by your side until the end
Solo: Tyler
Failing Gods
Into the shadow of my mind, mindful of the implications
Failing Gods
Where was your God when brother died?
Failing Gods
A cancer patient hopes he'll win
Failing Gods
I'm by your side until the end
Solo: Tony
There is no rhyme or reason
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3. |
Cannibalistic Mind
04:44
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Waste away for hours, slip away
The only way out of this cage
You're fading away
By the window watching autumn leaves
My only break from reality
He lies in his agony
He'll die, this I feel but
But what's the purpose behind?
He lies, shadows of pink in the light
Implies terrible things will happen to all
Never had a normal life, I'm not the same
Severed ties to community
Your fears are legitimate
Meander through hallways day by day
Leave my mind to die by day
The mind when unfed it
It feeds--so insatiable
It eats itself
The mind, so unnourished
It eats any idea it comes in contact with
Solo: Calos
Solo: Tony
He lies to himself yet
He cries out for mercy
But still he keeps up his faith
He lies to the others
He cries when they ask him
How he's doing
I'm not
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4. |
Coping Mechanism
04:12
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You say I'm angry, I can't deny
It's burning in my veins
But that's only the symptom
You say I'm searching, I tell you now
The things that I have seen
Could crush your fragile state of mind
We call it folklore
Wander the moonscape, let your spirit fly
Disguised as strength and yet I never question why
Wander the moonscape, a dreamworld farewell
Your id desires freedom, subterfuge by self
Born in my mind, a seed of misanthropic fear
I can't identify as one of you I know
It's not a phase, it's not a stretch
I'd love to rid myself this useless cage of human flesh
We call it folklore
Wander the hallways, let your spirit fly
Disguised as innocence, you never question why
Wander the hallways, a conscious farewell
Your id desires freedom, subterfuge by self
Solo: Tyler
Wander the hospital, let your spirit fly
I am a lonely vessel, candle in the night
Wander the hospital, subconscious farewell
Memories and time will fade
How long do broken ships sail?
Lies and lies from generations die
Yet I'm the only one who questions
Why we're here
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5. |
My Fantasy Destroyed
05:10
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I walk alone at night, hoping that I'll find
Epiphany or more, a greater understanding
Always knew that I'd be alone
Never thought that I'd find a home
Home, a different meaning
Who is solitary
Always knew that I'd die alone
Never thought that I'd find someone
Someone to be by my side
To help me find the fleeting light
Full moon shine--I'm swimming in my deepest fears
Blackest skies--a highway jam that's in my head
Nevermind--something is here
Crashing waves--I'm treading in the blackened waves
Flowing blood--relentless routing in my head
Pounding fear--time to reveal
Feeling now that my brother's tale
Doesn't have a happy end
End to a broken line
This wretched soul, observer
Always knew I was special, I
I'm taken back by
By the surreal feelings here
Almost like a dreamworld here
Glowing moon--it's almost like a lucid dream
Lurking doom--or is it just a catalyst?
Nevermind--time to go back
Gentle wind--I look up to his room alight
So exposed--I'm standing naked in the rain
Now return--to numbing death
Cancer leaves families exposed
Rips, cracks into canyon walls
Step by step up to his room
Lying there, mother beside
Solo: Tony
Fantasy is torn apart
Reality is fucking stark
Stark in the face of tears
Eyes that show our fears
Mom caresses withered hands
Hold on tight and pray loud
Loud is the comfort of men
Yet they're silent in their pride
Indoor breeze--this surely cannot happen now
Earned your keys--into another bleaker world
Blood and bone--you won't escape
Only smoke--emergency to save his life
Without fire--no longer am I here alone
Earned your keys--time to grow up
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6. |
Lucid Nightmare
10:45
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Peeling back the layers of what is real
Darkness comes into my realm surreal and
Pulsing steady, macabre delight
It calls to me beating, somewhere in the night
Oh how it burns
Dreams broken by you, your suffering and your pain
Infects those you love, we share in all the pain
Now--time to be seen
See--all that has been
Free--all that you think
Let us inside you
No--let us be you
Please--soon we'll be through
What--do you desire?
All that I can know
I sit alone by windows
So silent, meditating quiet
There's nothing odd it seems but
A drop of sweat spells in all out
Shadows with eyes
A force of nature has found a friend
Shadow's disguise
The memories are cast into light
Speak, speak to me she pleads
So kind and motherly
One shouldn't speak his thoughts
Just keep to your own self
Why (I) have you come here?
I (you) want it all clear?
Shall (we) we learn about
Each other and more?
Why (I) isn't the question
I (you) want it all clear
Shall (we) we take our hands
Leap into the void
We spoke for endless hours
What seemed like lifetimes passing by
All that is dark and twisted
A journey through what I forgot
Signs from within
What might be certain might also fail
Signs all around
Life with blinders, I shall be found
Solo: Tyler
Darkness behind, behind the door it's
Darkness inside, inside each of us
Darkness behind, behind the door it's
Darkness inside, inside each of us
I'm in a dream/reality
A paradox so real
No…
Contact, eternity between us
Answers, it's opening floodgates in my mind
Solo: Josh
Solo: Tony
Looking straight into my soul he asks me
"Are you ready to forgive me?" Forgive him now!
Now begins my spiral fall into the black
Grey ethereal world of answers, answers and lies
Curiosity divine yet frightening
When left alone the mind will turn on, turn on itself
Open doorways, let the dark come in
The void seems frightening, but it needs you
Needs to be seen
No more dreams, the things I've seen
In a lifetime of mere seconds
Time compressed, what's the deal?
To be struck between yourself and I
No limits, I want to fly
Leave the world of mortals far behind
No body, I want to die
leave us one with the elements in space
A noble step into the light
Of the darkness of reality
Count to three, and then you'll see
This has all been just inside your head
No! I want to stay
You! Do not betray
I! I found you there
I have freed your soul
We (I) are to be bound
I (we) cannot be found
Die (no) singular path
For my desires
Awaken from the stupor of meditation gone awry
But still the pain is with me
and to my right he's lying there
Stand into light
The morning beams of the sun's twilight
Stand up and see
A newfound path of your destiny
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7. |
The Rain in the Meadow
01:41
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Rays of sunshine through the haze
In these melancholy days
A mind who's blinded by the pathos
'til the nerve is burned and numb
Have I gone too far?
A fallen star, but did I ever really shine?
I feel the truth unfold
Blur the lines and pray
But not to God, I yearn the flawed embrace of man
I feel the lines have thus been blurred
The catalyst of mine occurred
Bent the straw and broke the line
This new reality of mine
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Nemesis/Fratricide
06:52
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Waiting for heaven to shine
Watching the life force of my brother drain away
Carried on through hellish halls
Dimly lit, I hear the calls
You can't save me--I'm breaking down
Family weeps together and
the presence of another man
Michael Andrus has just arrived
"I am the father of the man who's dying here
This is my power, authority of God"
I carried hopes with me that somehow we'd avoid
These ego games and sport for your control
Life, after this life, after this death
You're wandering in a lucid nightmare now
To be the wraith who wanders endlessly through space
You're looking death in its pallid face this time
Carry me away and split this soul apart
In this world of mine inside my head
Carry me away and bring me to the edge
To the edge of consciousness and pride
Skies of grey and howling wind
Let the combat trial begin
Fratricidal--we'll spill the blood!
"My son has title chance to make it through this hell
His guts are liquified and chemo treatments failed"
I cannot say that you are wrong or you are right
But words from you are venom, no agreement is in sight
Life, ending his life, mercy disguised
You're withdrawing into lucid nightmares now
He'll be the wraith who wanders endlessly through space
You're looking into a fantasy this time
Carry me away to dream forevermore
In this world I'm promised to explore
Carry me away and bring me with you there
To where pain is gone and dreams are real
Dancing starlight
Dance with me
Dancing starlight
Solo: Tony
Time, time to decide, palaver's time
Time to decide what to do with dying men
To be the man who holds authority of God's kind will
This vanity illusion will decay
When the bastard son is held into the light
Pass the torch and praise the King of Rome
When the bastard son is old enough to rule
Then your reign will end by Mordred's hand
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9. |
Autophagia
06:17
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"So it's clear brother, looking back I have regrets
and though I know I hurt you
Cast aside your mother and left you
Understand the pain that scarred my mind
And twisted my heart
Please forgive my actions
Please allow me to die with dignity"
Wishing silent just to cry and curl up on the floor
Looking down at him, pale and sunken eyes
Bony fingers and rib cage
Rage, rage in my heart, dying to kill
Pull all the flesh from the bone
Sinew from bone, stabbing to death
All that's repressed and
Rage, rage in my heart, dying to die
Easy as one finger's pull
Pull the trigger, end it all now
Nothing is worthwhile
Day by day I see him fade
Day by day I want to follow him
Fading time, his mind is dulling
Like a blunted spear once proud
Kill the pain, benumb him
Dull his senses, just let him fade away
Sleep away to stop the pain
Pretty soon he'll fall asleep for good
Death is closer yet, no one knows when
Helplessly I go on
No one cares for you, no one dares love you
Leave your mind to itself
Rage, rage in my heart, dying to kill
Pull all the flesh from the bone
Sinew from bone, stabbing to death
All that's repressed and
Rage, rage in my heart, dying to die
Easy as one finger's pull
Pull the trigger, end it all now
Nothing is worthwhile
Set me free from my myself
I cannot take anymore
Solo: Tony
Solo: Tyler
Rage, rage in my heart, dying to kill
Pulling off ears and your lips
Knife between ribs, slowing heartbeat
All that's repressed and
Rage, rage in my heart, dying to die
Easy as one leap of faith
Come from nothing, end as nothing
Nothing is worthwile
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10. |
Life Support
04:26
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Between rage and sorrow
We sense approaching death
The drugs put him to sleep
He's conscious less and less
He will come back to us, God will not abandon
I gave him life, and I won't see my pride and joy slip away
I know that I hide alone
But I will never leave you
I wouldn't have you take this path
Of what I'll soon become
Please--sitting in corners alone
Please come back to me
No--trust in the gift of life
He will pass on in the night
I hope that I may be wrong
God will relieve thosewith faith
Please--I will not give up on you
I'm bracing myself for the storm
Storm! I will not yield! I know that you would pray
But no prayers will sound while that thing is still around
I just can't take it all, this constant hate and fear
Like a snake that circles round and round
and feasts upon itself
I know that you two butt heads, but can't you let that rest?
My son is dying here and still you can't but difference aside?
Will you consider my words?
I just want to be alone
How can we deal with this shit?
You've already danced with death
We could go on in shifts
There's no sense dealing with him
Trust--how can I trust in you people?
It is your only choice
Madness--can I be set free?
No more--now show yourself
Selfish--picking on my brother's wife
Stop now--his poor love
Cold bitch--just leave her alone!
Please, now! Everything's ending
Snide jabs--leave the girl alone!
Michael!
It's good that my brother can't see
Solo: Josh
Now--watching the strength in her heart
Tolerance comes to an end
Now you can see why I left
Stories have come to life
A glimpse into broken minds
Everyone carries burdens
But don't let it fester in you
I know that it's my sacrifice
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Cast aside the impulse of my fear
Leave behind the world you once held dear
I feel cursed by heaven
Cut loose my frustrations
Led to darkest waters
Treading in the void of death
I'm ready to deny
(The body of your waking life)
I'm ready to defy
Fall asleep, I'll meet you there (Burning the fray!)
Sacrifice your waking life
Count the sheep until you fade (Burning the fray!)
Then your feet will touch the shore
He gasps, raspy breathing
No more life support and
He's swimming on his own
Circling the void he will roam
I watch my brother die
(The mind of your waking life)
I ask the heavens, "why?"
Fall asleep, I'll meet you there (Burning the fray!)
Swirling mist coils round your feet
Fall asleep, I'll meet you there (Burning the fray!)
Almost like a twisted dream
Solo: Tyler
Nemesis starts at our hearts
Again with his fights and righteous scorn
Mother is done, rebuking him
Rage of paternal love divine
"Get out" she says, "leave her alone"
"You're heartless and vile, I want you out!"
After she's done, Jared is gone
Flat-lined as if he saw it all
And now, after all
He sees his own son dead
And flees into hallways
As we're left with just a corpse
Fall asleep, I'll meet you there (Burning the fray!)
Slip your feet into the warm
Fall asleep, I'll meet you there (Burning the fray!)
Leave your mortal shell behind
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Solo: Carlos
Resting in fields of a nebula
I rise from my throne of stars
There to my right is a gaseous form
and I speak but no words come forth
Colors burn the human eye
Godlike structures etched in time
Paradox of change divine
Cast from shadows
We're all one creature, life form, and cell divine
I am bleeding into the cup of immortality
Solo: Tyler
Mockery of human form
Spirit child you're now reborn
Enter through these astral gates
Fly beyond and seal your fate
Dreaming of you now, wondering if you're still here
Move through arches, the dark behind the doorway now
Glitches of gold in the sky above me
Wince at its light as you cry in glory
Now that you have eternity at your hands
Will you find all you sought before?
Fantasy renewed yet different
Given life anew, but skewed and warped
You've made the progress and done me proud
I'll call you family and life the shroud
Bestowed my wisdom upon the noble meek
There is reward for those who seek
I found thy wisdom, but at a price
Gave up all that I am, soon I will forget
That I was once a being with everlasting hope
And yet I learned the lesson
Shed the mask and coped
Pass the light, remember the fallen
I will be the "King of Rome"
Singing songs to honor the loved
You will be the "King of Rome"
Solo: Jeff
Solo: Tony
Given the choice of how to live
Honor my family scarred and torn
Cancer is just a part of life
Everyone tumbles in the flames
There is no reason to explain
Anything by the hand or will of God
Life's a burden, love is loss
You're not a winner when you don't even play
Give it all and it's not enough
Nothing that's worthwhile comes without some pain
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13. |
Enantiodromia
01:30
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Judicator Tucson, Arizona
Judicator is a Power Metal band formed by John Yelland and Alicia Cordisco after the two met at a Blind Guardian concert. They released two historical based albums as a recording project, and then evolved into a full band, signing with Prosthetic Records in 2020! Their 6th album 'The Majesty of Decay' full of epic and progressive power metal is out now! ... more
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